im......scared?

for once in a few months i'm scared, because i saw him again today and all i could think was Finally, i get to see him again. but his face, there was nothing this time.....i couldnt tell what face he was making, or what his emotions toward me were, it was just nothing, not observing, just.....there, and this is while i was stopped at a stop light. after that all the lights were green but he was there....everywhere no matter where i looked he was there, he is gone now....thank god.....but seriously, and when i pulled into my neighborhood there was a huge bloodstain in the road, and drag marks, but it was caused by something big...idk guys, idk anymore and that scares the piss out of me. what is going to happen next?