hey guys

Its been a WhILe and the bLog has gone dark, it did good while it was here But its now officially closEd. i know this BreAks whatever immersion was left, and i Can say i had fun while i was here i do want to point out some things if there are any questions however.
1. this goes against me the community and my purpose but its all faKe
2. i got some great feed back from you guys personally and we reached i belive upward of 800 total views so thats more than most people can say right?
3. thank you for coming out i love all of you and sleep well, dont be afraid of the dark because its your friend...

1/28/13

HE cant have me, not now, not ever. the bastard tried it today, he tried to get me to wreck the car so i could "go away again for a while" but this time there was this tone in his voice. he wants me gone he even went so far as to knock me off the road. seriously? so im preparing for war u guys. dont be surprised if i dont come back. so my car is wrecked, radiators destroyed  frame bent, fan wrecked and engine shot. so much fun so im locked out here in the woods now with nothing but 3 weeks worth of food, a few guns, and other means of spiritual defense, but psychologically, im gone.

yea

so yea i was right, and i wish i wasnt. but he needed me again, and this time it was serious  you see guys ive been watching the world burn with all this slender man bullshit as of late the game the movies and all that. and all its doing is leting him win, and soon nothing can stop him. he is sort of like....im going to say ember from the t.v. show Danny phantom. the more you spread it, the more fear is induced and the stronger he gets. it is ridiculous how bad its gotten. he actually had to rest at one point due to a surge of fear. i wish i could forget what happened what happened while  was gone but its all there like it just happened. i was called about him by a mutual friend of my girlfriends. the guy thought he could help me with "him" as he put it. so i let him go on his way and let him feel like he was helping. well after a while HE got tired of this friend and told me to "invite him over, so he can experience my little problem" is how HE put it. so he comes over and i let HIM toy with the guy. well the guy freaks out and i warn him not to go outside under any circumstance guess what the guy sprints screaming from the house. needless to say he is gone now for good. so after that he tells me to go away for a while so i went to Cuba  really nice but other than that boring. i just woke up at home 3 days ago, and got the grid running again so were back in business. see you....real soon

every fucking time

so i was arrested for a short perod, ive been out for a week but every time i try to hang out with my girlfriend she knows hes there, get freaked out then leaves. seriously?!?!?! wtf bro. why is he doing this. does he need me again? then whats he want, or whats his problem!!!

disaster striking in: 3...2...1...

yes!

sorry this took a while but court was drawn out for a while, i was released due to circumstantial evidence. there was blood belonging to me at the scene but my alibi checked out, i was here with my girlfriend, who is awesome by the way. im feeling much better now, im happy, haven't had a headache, or even a cough in weeks. i laugh, and smile and it feels great. i was released from court and i was given a formal apology by the chief of police. things are finally going my way guys so ima go get a tan. because being locked inside for months kinda made me uber pale. oh btw that pic is me

so...um...yea

well this is embarrassing, you see apparently i was recently arrested for a recent string of murders. do i even need to explain how the bodies were found? because at this point its obvious. but why would someone (im going to say its HIM) want me arrested, is he afriad im going to leave or something? idk guys but it confused the fuck out of me, i have court in the morning. i pray to god that im aquited or whatever, damn thank god i have a great lawyer

what i know

i know that the slender man is a tall, thin, bald, faceless being that stalks those who he deems worth through some arbitrary designation. he can slenderwalk, and causes slendersickness, which causes coughing, headaches, memory loss, blackouts, agitation, and can lead to total loss of will and becoming a proxy. my question is, why do people keep adding stupid shit to the mythos like this dumb ass music thing. "metal makes him happy, i was playing it and he smiled to show jagged teeth" okay HE HAS NO MOUTH. if he wishes to speak he does so telepathically. the only version like slenderman is the tall man which is slenderman only with eye sockets, and a grin that curls around his head. but people chime the same shit over and over. it annoys the fuck out of me. "i just found this, and i live near the woods, am i safe?" followed closely by "YOUR FUCKED" no there not fucked, so you mean to tell me that anyone who ever lives near the woods ever is fucked. i call bullshit considering a very large portion of the world  is forest so no they're not fucked your fucking stupid. idk, i know it free territory for expansion ,but stupid arbitrary shit that makes no damn since just fucks everything up. there is nothing wrong with the mythos as it stands so don't touch it. that would be like me taking the Cthulhu mythos and saying that in stead of tentacles Cthulhus face was made of gummy worms then that became the norm. seriously? whatever im done

amazing

hes gone...i mean he has left for good. at least...i think he has. he said to me "J***, your time with me is done. we must part ways, and we may see each other in the future but not for a while..." then he was gone. i was on edge for hours but he is gone. i could have sworn he was going to kill me. but he is gone, the headaches are gone, so is the coughing, my throught is healing, and i feel great. sam has actually been calm, instead of like static. i think im going to rest for a while guys, check in on the wika every now and then, but have fun guys. This is J. Renrut signing off, for a while this time

so let me tell you guys a story, a long time ago there lived a couple, young and in love. they live happily in the USA, that is until they have a child, the first child has horrible complications for an unknown reason, the child is stillborn, but somehow unknown to the parents and doctors another child is born from the same mother. the child is perfectly healthy and happy. the grieving parents are elated to have a child and the other will be sorely missed. they lived happily for a while....before i continue what is wrong so far? that child wasn't there, i mean it was not in the womb up until labor. where did it come from. well let me finish, the parents are plagued with nightmares of a terrifying man calling for there son. for years this happens until they move to altensteig, Germany. on the child's 4th birthday he goes out into the woods to explore and happens upon a very tall tree with hundreds of thin black branches, the tree stands alone in a large opening surrounded by golden wheat, it whispers to the kid "I have been waiting, for so long. I'm glad your here" the trees branches retract and the tree is revealed to be a tall faceless man in a black suit. the kid runs for his life back to his house, as he can see his house in the distance he begins to scream, but he slams into a "tree branch" (according to the official story) his parents get to him and rush him off to the hospital, where he is in a coma for 11 years, on his 15th birthday his parents visit and he awakes, but the kid they knew was only half there. the kid they met was almost a blank slab from the shock, his mind was locked away, but he soon comes to and develops into a smart charismatic, charming lad. the problem with this story is I was never in a coma for 11 years, i have memories of that time, but the people i remember don't even know me, when i told them stories of our childhood, they remembered them as odd dreams they had. this kid is me, but why would HE tell me that HE made up my entire life. he has been grooming me for something, and idk what but im terrified as to what it is. guys he made up my entire life. and fuck he is here, hold on okay its been about 10 min, i told him i still need time to process this info, so he will be back for me. i don't know what to do, he made me me, but he didn't know about SAM, and it ruined his plans, he has been trying to bury my memories but SAM is stopping him and he is tired of it, he is probably going to kill me, so i say goodnight and i quote a great man "you know that big ball of radiation we call the sun?  well it'll burst you into flames if you stay in one place for too long. that is if the static don't get you first. so remember, even if your dusted: you may be gone, but out here in the desert your shadow lives on without you" this is J. Renrut signing off...hold up sam...oh he is clever SAM=S.A.M.= Same As Me